Confessions of a Recovering Perfectionist – Part 74

I Don’t Believe in Miracles

I don’t believe in miracles; I rely on them. 

Our brains have two hemispheres, the right and the left. And the two “brains” have different functions. The left governs the ability to be intellectual, analytical, verbal, logical, and organized. The right is more inclined toward values, emotions, intuition, the aesthetic, and the creative. 

I can tell that I’ve tended to favor my left brain throughout my life. And it has fit well with my perfectionistic perspective. But now that I’m seeking for a more balanced approach, I try to deliberately spend more time in my right brain, to give it practice. 

The left brain needs to see to believe. The right brain believes more readily. And since “all things are possible to him that believeth” (Mark 9:23), I choose to believe; to shift toward my right brain. 

Moroni asks, “has the day of miracles ceased?” And then he answers his own question, “if these things have ceased . . . it is because of unbelief.” (See Moroni 7: 27, 29, 35-37.) So yes, I choose to believe. 

I believe that God has me on a path toward light and truth. Line upon line, He is putting resources in my path that are leading me ever closer to Him. Some of these miraculous resources are: people, angels, scriptures, podcasts, audiobooks, classes, meetings, challenges, opportunities, memes, conference talks, processes, pain, blogs, insights, videos, prayers, afflictions, understanding, healing, and nature. 

One of the gifts of the spirit is the gift to “work mighty miracles” (Moroni 10:12). The gifts of the spirit are usually given for the benefit of others. I’ve been the beneficiary of those miracles. 

Last week, we were able to attend a session in the temple, as a family friend received her endowments. It was such a blessing. President Russell M. Nelson has taught: “I promise you that the Lord will bring the miracles He knows you need as you make sacrifices to serve and worship in His temples.” I felt the truth of that. I believe it. And I trust that He is bringing them in the order and at the frequency they are needed for my good. 

To be continued . . . with Part 75